11:07 PM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009 what kind of m@#$%* are you? never have i imagine to be so cold, heartless? i have never ignored, yet neglected you when you are sick? i have lived with you for almost 19 years. have i not earn tat teensy bit of caring from you? how can any ------- ignore her own FUCKING d_____ is lying alone in her room. god knows i could be dying. u did not even give me medicine let alone water. i was so helpless. all you cares was mr green. fuck you for that. wheres is that tenderness, soft hearted, sweet natured soul in you? i dun pray and im a walking wreck. but, u pray . but still so hard headed. i bet if i hit you with a metal rod, the rod will bent. it will bloody crumble to pieces. when u were sick, i did my best. tried to make u feel good. cook, gave u medicine, drive u to the clinic. im not being an ass . not even being calculative. do i have to DIE for u to care? i listened to you, heed ur every werds. how could you do tis to me? u broke my heart. i swear from this day onwards , u shall always be seen as a selfish @#$%&*. what have i done wrong? do i deserve to be blame for everything? everyday, u do tis to me? i tot for once, u will smile when you see me. u dun haf to point out that is my responsibility. I KNOW. DAMN IT. u keep saying u haf to werk to find the money for my driving? wth. i dun need the license just yet. i want to use my own money. but u insist. this is why, i refused. i didn't even ask for money. even if i know teres not enough in my a/c stress bodoh aku. do i have to live my life pleasing people? putting their needs ahead of me? my mother made my life miserable. Y? cos she made me stay in motherfucking JOHORE. basically cutting off all forms of communications with my friends. my gerlfriends can't even call me for a gerl's outing. |
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