6:35 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008 Seriously Hopeless And No brainer Asshole .
im a loser just to let history repeat itself. it was once back then where my bills reach hundreds. because of calls i made from oversea. yes, that blew me away. i was scolded and mentally tortured by my mother's nagging. and now it happen to me. i was so annoyed. i have no idea why i pick up his calls, even though i know for sure that he died in my mind few mths ago. maybe cos i still miss him. every where i go seems to relive the memories. i swear i don't love him. wads done is done. even though my mum thought i cried for him. NO. she's wrong. i cried cause she accuse me of many things. i have no say. and like what i have said, he don't deserve my tears. nobody understands what i feel. cried my heart out the whole night. felt so lonely and useless. i miss my bestfriend. she use to be there for me. crying my heart out to her. not sitting in the corner of the room. screaming in my pillow. i have to find a work now. pay the bills. |
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