3:26 AM
Wednesday, June 3, 2009 i'm so helpless without you.
I am so sorry baby. I took you for granted. I love you too much. Please don’t go. You are my sunshine baby. I thought we promised each other to wipe each other tear when anyone of us cries? I miss your kindness. I might seem helpless right now. Im literally not obliged to beg you on my knees. I am so sorry for not making you happy. Im sorry for not being there when you need me. Im just so useless. I accuse you of so many things yet you stayed true to me. Giving me your silly smile when things go wrong. You held me close, saying everything’s gonna be okay. Why? Cause Hermy’s here for you. Im so restless. I would give anything to be with you right now. I’m just wondering why. Why now when things go bad you turn your back on me? I swear baby. Your my only source of happiness. Without you, i swear i will spoil myself. I can’t sleep. I can’t stop thinking what happens if you leave me. I was blind baby, you showered me with so much love, care and attention. I thought no matter how bad i treat you you won’t leave me. I was wrong. You are still a human. You dun deserve to be treated that way. Until when you say i will continue on this way? I hope it stops here right now. I want to be the one you love now , later and forever. Please give me one more chance? This will be the last and final test to see how much i love you. If things still don’t stays the same. I won’t stand in your way. I’ll rather you leave me than torture me by neglecting me. Is this a test baby? If it is, please end it now. I missed you too much. Theres not much my heart can handle. I yearn for your hugs. I want to be held by you. Im really sorry for hurting you all this while sey. I didn’t realise. When i read through all our MSN convo. I was always being grumpy. No wonder you don’t look forward to meet me anymore. I don’t care baby. I will change for YOU. Cause i love you soo much. Do i deserve your love still? Only you hold the answer baby. |
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