12:42 AM
Thursday, November 19, 2009 been awhile since blog is updated. eversince Singapore Idol has more than 10 contestants. tats very long ago. but for me , nothing good happened except for tears and quarrels. i miss my life. i miss shopping. i miss bitching with my babes. N i miss shopping with my babes the most. i have no idea whats holding me back. im sure my babes are ignoring me now. im sadd. i miss them. how could i let someone get in between me and my gerlfrens? we've been thru so much together. y now? Hey Dills , u haf no idea how much i miss u. how much i miss smoking and laughing. our heart to heart sessions. our shopping moments. im sorry for not being tere for you all this while. i've promised not to let anyone destroy our friendship. but i failed , u know i love you sia. im dissapointed with myself. with my life. how it has turn out to be. i have so much to tell you. i jus miss our caramel frappe at Starbucks. no words can describe how much i miss us. Hey Fiza, ur someone i called a true friend. no matter what i do , u still treat me the way i am. i hate myself for treating u this way. u've always been tere for me when i need you. banyak sia aku terhutang budi dgn kau. i rmbr those nights aku terlpas bus kau teman aku sampai pagi. when im short of cash , u treat me makan. damn. wish i could meet u soon baby. aku rindu kau gile babi. sad that my own boifren dun get it. he only thinks im cheating him everytime. even if im with my family. is this called love? well, fuck it. im physically and mentally hurt. i yearn to be with my friends so much. i miss my outings. carefree , able to do what i want. i dun think that exist anymore. but i won't give up. im still fighting for my right. FUCK LOVE, FUCK EVERYTHING , FUCK YOU. |
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